Holidays coming to an end..too fast le la ...aduii . But i dont like holidays ..it makes me feel like an idiot staying in the house the whole day . Anyway..i had so much in this holidays .haha. I sleep at 5 am everyday. woke up at 1 pm .. quite unusual lehh~.~ . its like a blink of eye . year is coming to an end. September le , next year ... UEC .. I can feel the heat already.. So hot..haha
I wish to bring my whole family to a vacation with my own money as soon as possible. i was wondering that whether shes still going to australia next year ? The best is no , because i want to.....errr... be close friends with you . teeheexD . write till here. SEE ya

I will remain as myself for another 21 days( A period to change totally) . My brother went to Kl to further his studies.. Once in a while , theres always quarrel in my house . Quite noisy..but now.. nothing... Just some music playing around my ear... And i dont used to tell my parents about what i think .. I feel alone.. At the mean time.. this atmosphere made me change..i dont like to talk anymore..Summore i duno what to talk also.. So , i keep quiet these days.. I felt that what i talk back these days are all SHIT . nonsense. Sometimes i feel so tight ...between my parents ..Everytime i quarrel with them.. i cant let it out .. My brother away, my friends are away too~ So i had to swallow it myself .It taste awfull.. Or maybe its the process of modern life.. i get it anyway.. And i dont take it too hard.. i bet friends around me condiser me as a weirdo.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

i just Shouted. ....tats all.. aihhh..

Recently i got lots of problem and matters around me , maybe i've take it serious while its just a normal case..But i'm very pressured !!! WHO KNOWS THAT!! no place i can share with... just here ...split it all out here. Now only i realised that when i keep scroll down to those online ... Category Boys and Girls... although almost 20 people online at that time ... And i find that no one i can share my problem with..Doesn mean that i dont like them..its just i dont feel i can get what i want.. And i just keep and keep and keep...Accumulated day per day.. Sure burst .. Sometime i do feel wana shout out loud.. haha.. My house couldnt take it as neighbour is around .. I'm not like this everyday...But untill night ... while listening some piano song that my friend lend me.. Those problems just pop out suddenlly..If 2 of ur best friend quarrel and both of them have a good reason for themselve .Who you will defend ?just an assumtion . I wish like hell or heaven that someone can share these with me...I'm not an full time entertainer ok...? I am human too and i dont happy all the time . After school - me totally diffrent , when i reach home. i wont laugh anymore and i just like to be alone except for gaming or chating time...I hope TIME flys!
But we just have the rights to use our life , we dont have the rights to control our life.. Theres still lots of lots of thoughts crossing my mind during night ..i just cant type it all out here..Some are just short term memories in my brain and these what i post tonight i those long terms... lol...swt right..?-_-



Just now... i saw my father fall down .. At that time , i felt shocked a little while... and i quickly give him a hand..my heart feel so pain..As i ask him did he knock his head..he just say no and walk in to the kitchen while he keep rubbing his head..i just stay silent.. One thing i realise..my father getting older day per day..Somemore when the day he leave me comes..what should i do? i couldnt manage to lose him.. In spite that , thats not really gona happen...I want him to have a BETTER life and not still working at this age which gona hit 55 ... aihh.... blog is the bestest way for those people who like doesnt have the guts to share with his friends...just like me.. @.@.... oFF.... 12.54 AM . 12/09/2009

12 in the midnight . Siting infront of the monitor , as my Music Player rollling . In my mind , keep pop out lots of lots of thoughts.. I wonder If someone keep influnced by something that the other people told , if a chance is given to them . Why are they still keep pushing when they didn even give a chance to understand it . Sometimes i will think a lot of stupid question...I dont know why. Like this one , why people in this world wont have a perfect personality include myself -_-. And sometimes i was wondering , nowadays we encouraged to study hard and enter university . But the time we graduate from there should be 5 or 6 years later. At that time , how many certificate holder on the street looking for a job , and that time what we can do if theres no vacany while those people are MASTER , DEGREE or others..The comunity become more and more compatitive...And if we get a job .Monthly salary thousand over ...Will it be enough for nowdays? And izit our value is just thousand over ringgit?If divide by day, our cost will be just less than 100. Izit this what they get after study for 5 ,6 years in university ? lol... if anyone look untill here,the first thought in your mind sure is ( Whats wrong with this person? ) -_- Wel...This is me..Friends , i have a few of my BEST BEST friends . Is it talk everyday, laugh everyday , play everyday consider as best friends? I'm dont know . I am worry about myself nowadays , 17 this year , go to school everyday ...But learn nothing .. @@.. I dont feel good of myself nowadays..feel like something real bad is gonna happen... Let the day come ba...

This week is our school sports week, i've take part in basketball and badminton competition..

For basketball, i try not to talk about it..but i fell twice in one day -_-
When i was substitue into the game, not even 2 minutes.. i fall down , shouldn say fall , should say glide over the rough floor.. After some medication on my wound, i'm ready to play again..haha After that , my teamate swap me inside the game . Im stable enough to play at that time.. i think ..haha. BUT...BUT! who knows.. in 5 minutes time , i fall again..ARGH! At first , i dont fell the pain . But after that...Wulala.. sakitnya.. my little finger bleed.. For the coming days.. i cant bath properly ... here pain there pain .. ): However, our class lost all four matches ..How bad.. lack of pratice i think ..

Three days after, TODAY - Badminton competition, we pratice alot for this competition, but it end up bad.. :( We feel we gona win all of them at first..
Mana tahu.. we are the first team eliminated from the competition .. SO pek chek at that time, but ..aiya.. whatever la.. we still can try next year.. haha.

AHH...yea, almost forgot . I bought myself a laptop yesterday. Dell inspiron 1420 . Cost me 2.2 k . Erm.. my mum paid for me first and i will pay her back monthly.. TANX MOM! I hope that everything can go smoothly in these coming days... SHIT ! exam is only after next next week ..

I love to chat with you..(: My friend . haha. to:E